... so that we do not suffer shipwreck

 A.M. Hosta

10/1/2021

The federal election is now behind us and we look with trepidation to the coming new Government, when the new government is in place and I hear this word from our Lord:

"You may soon be judged again...if you do not do what I say, it will soon become much darker.Pray!"

I am struggling with my Lord and telling Him that I lack silence around me and can't hear Him as well as I used to.

My husband and I have a wedding anniversary today and he got out the papers and pictures and wedding cards for it so we can delve into it and I reminisce fondly while blocking out my Lord. He complains and I think of the sweet time of him with Clare.

Then in a vision he shows me a bouquet of white roses that he wants to give me.

I tell him that I do not know what to give him, because everything already belongs to him.

 

10/2/2021

When I wake up, the Lord says:

"Reading service."

"Experience collector."

Good. I can give you that if you accept this from me.

"Somebody has to die...look at me...these people."

I understand what you're saying.

In the morning I went to the garden to feed the fish. Today is Saturday and that's when you can call in at the garden office if you have a question. I decided to go to the garden office to see the office manager. It is general gardening and he is somewhere on the premises, so I leave without having achieved anything.

Our garden neighbor has again demanded that we remove our lilacs. That's what I wanted to talk about.

The Lord says,

 "Order!"

And I say they hate us, it's hatred, they want us out of here.

"Greed. Always wants more!"

Yes, that's why we have to narrow and take away the lilac. For years the lilac was there and all of a sudden they want it gone.

"I love you."

I love you too.

Later, I phoned the answering machine from the garden office.

My husband invited me to dinner after his work. He now has an antibody card and is a recoverer and again offered to have me tested for antibodies as well. I told him that yes, that was a good thing so he would no longer be tested (now daily) at work, but I just don't know what that means spiritually ... surely it must not be that as a recovering person you are allowed to do everything that the vaccinated are allowed to do (events, amusements, etc.)

I told him that it means conflict for me and that I want to wait to see what the new government will decide.

In the evening I fell asleep sitting in bed and when I woke up I heard:

"Tschunky... finally someone... Delta variant ... and he directed my gaze to my hot calves.... "

I had a cold, 37.8 ° temperature, headache, dried lips and palate, muscle and limb pain in the last few days. I'm thinking about getting tested instead of being so stubborn - I've never been tested yet. Then I think if I have the Delta variant, I need to let it heal so I can develop antibodies...but I probably just have hay fever...there's nothing you can do about the Delta variant anyway but let it heal.

10/3/2021

The father comes forward and says:

"I want my people to get stronger on covid, not sick."

Are then those who have it not your people and those who get vaccinated ?

I ask him. Do you forgive me?

"Wait... I'm coming... pray...!"

"You'd better have done it in the testament...!"

Satan is currently provoking me in every way possible. The couple was again loud above us and sleep was out of the question...until  3a.m. My husband is on early duty and has to get up at 4:30 to take the train to work. He asks if he should let the smoke in, but I mean that just gives Satan new attack surface again to do more damage.

Father says:

"Don't scold me!"

Sorry!

"Any water is correct!"  (??)

I see a lake surface at dusk and a drop of water falling into the lake.

"Stay"

Every scolding, every evil action always only offers new attack surface for more evil.

Every pleasure diminishes another's habitat.

Good water means being charitable to one another in every way.

The one who loves extends the hand of peace to the other.

Double warfare.

Love is the weapon of the godly in strife.

All are at strife and none call upon me!"

I called for you in the night and yet I was all alone.

"You want to love and no one understands."

"Wedding...!"

...celebrate, that's what made your space inside me smaller and you were all alone. Then you scolded me Tschunky in your loneliness and I mocked you and I'm sorry for that now. Satan tempts me in every possible way.

"That's just about the way it is when Satan rules the world."

"Take him.... I just said to wake you up."

I mean, he's already there, but we'd have to pretend he's not so as not to diminish your space, and I mustn't brag so as not to diminish his and the other brothers' and sisters' space, lest they get jealous and attack me.

On 10/1 we celebrated our wedding anniversary and I bought salmon, even though we usually eat only vegetarian, because I wanted to please my husband.

Celebrating is also the reason why we are not supposed to celebrate Christmas and Easter in such a pronounced way, so as not to diminish your space, because we do that while it is your merit and then you are totally displaced in celebrating.

"Take it easy. He sees it. Itgoes well!"

One wave of your hand and we wouldn't be here. You are the one who unites us, that we are still here, because you love us and want us to be well on earth, especially in the time of tribulation in which we find ourselves. Thank you for taking this time for me in all this confusion. I have missed this so much.

"Through lack of insight and experience, many things remain hidden."

Yes, because people don't bother to listen to their inner voice or even refuse to do so and make it difficult for those who want to. They live on the highway and press the gas pedal until it crashes and then they are helpless and wander searching through the forest because they no longer understand the world. Boredom and greed for more and more are some of the reasons we humans get lost or fall down.

"Impetuous ... prayer has loosed the fetter."

That night around 2 a.m., I was tempted to call the police when there was no end to the talking and celebrating about us. I thought better of it, went to the kitchen, knelt down and started praying, and then became calmer and more insightful, knowing anything I would do would mean arguments and cost more nerves. Yes, I have become more and more nervous and also aggressive lately due to the lack of silence... because this is what is over us every Saturday ....  

The bondage is the bond of evil. It binds our spirit and clings to us and only prayer can free us from it, because in prayer we give you the space in which you can redeem us with your love, when you give our conscience a voice that speaks to us to show us the right way and to restore our inner peace...when we apologize to you and your grace becomes effective again, when you forgive us, when we bring you back into our boat so that we don't suffer shipwreck.

Father wanted to say something more about the flesh, but I was no longer attentive enough.....