A.M. Hosta
10/1/2021
The federal
election is now behind us and we look with trepidation to the coming new Government,
when the new government is in place and I hear this word from our Lord:
"You may soon be judged again...if you do
not do what I say, it will soon become much darker.Pray!"
I am
struggling with my Lord and telling Him that I lack silence around me and can't
hear Him as well as I used to.
My husband
and I have a wedding anniversary today and he got out the papers and pictures
and wedding cards for it so we can delve into it and I reminisce fondly while
blocking out my Lord. He complains and I think of the sweet time of him with
Clare.
Then in a vision he shows me a bouquet of white
roses that he wants to give me.
I tell him
that I do not know what to give him, because everything already belongs to him.
10/2/2021
When I wake
up, the Lord says:
"Reading service."
"Experience collector."
Good. I can
give you that if you accept this from me.
"Somebody has to die...look at me...these
people."
I
understand what you're saying.
In the
morning I went to the garden to feed the fish. Today is Saturday and that's
when you can call in at the garden office if you have a question. I decided to
go to the garden office to see the office manager. It is general gardening and
he is somewhere on the premises, so I leave without having achieved anything.
Our garden
neighbor has again demanded that we remove our lilacs. That's what I wanted to
talk about.
The Lord says,
"Order!"
And I say they
hate us, it's hatred, they want us out of here.
"Greed. Always wants more!"
Yes, that's
why we have to narrow and take away the lilac. For years the lilac was there
and all of a sudden they want it gone.
"I love you."
I love you
too.
Later, I
phoned the answering machine from the garden office.
My husband
invited me to dinner after his work. He now has an antibody card and is a
recoverer and again offered to have me tested for antibodies as well. I told
him that yes, that was a good thing so he would no longer be tested (now daily)
at work, but I just don't know what that means spiritually ... surely it must
not be that as a recovering person you are allowed to do everything that the
vaccinated are allowed to do (events, amusements, etc.)
I told him
that it means conflict for me and that I want to wait to see what the new
government will decide.
In the
evening I fell asleep sitting in bed and when I woke up I heard:
"Tschunky... finally someone... Delta
variant ... and he directed my gaze to my hot calves.... "
I had a
cold, 37.8 ° temperature, headache, dried lips and palate, muscle and limb pain
in the last few days. I'm thinking about getting tested instead of being so
stubborn - I've never been tested yet. Then I think if I have the Delta
variant, I need to let it heal so I can develop antibodies...but I probably
just have hay fever...there's nothing you can do about the Delta variant anyway
but let it heal.
10/3/2021
The father
comes forward and says:
"I want my people to get stronger on covid,
not sick."
Are then
those who have it not your people and those who get vaccinated ?
I ask him.
Do you forgive me?
"Wait... I'm coming... pray...!"
"You'd better have done it in the
testament...!"
Satan is
currently provoking me in every way possible. The couple was again loud above
us and sleep was out of the question...until 3a.m. My husband is on early duty and has to
get up at 4:30 to take the train to work. He asks if he should let the smoke
in, but I mean that just gives Satan new attack surface again to do more
damage.
Father
says:
"Don't scold me!"
Sorry!
"Any water is correct!" (??)
I see a lake surface at dusk and a drop of
water falling into the lake.
"Stay"
Every scolding, every evil action always only
offers new attack surface for more evil.
Every pleasure diminishes another's habitat.
Good water means being charitable to one
another in every way.
The one who loves extends the hand of peace to
the other.
Double warfare.
Love is the weapon of the godly in strife.
All are at strife and none call upon me!"
I called
for you in the night and yet I was all alone.
"You want to love and no one
understands."
"Wedding...!"
...celebrate,
that's what made your space inside me smaller and you were all alone. Then you
scolded me Tschunky in your loneliness and I mocked you and I'm sorry for that
now. Satan tempts me in every possible way.
"That's just about the way it is when
Satan rules the world."
"Take him.... I just said to wake you
up."
I mean,
he's already there, but we'd have to pretend he's not so as not to diminish
your space, and I mustn't brag so as not to diminish his and the other
brothers' and sisters' space, lest they get jealous and attack me.
On 10/1 we
celebrated our wedding anniversary and I bought salmon, even though we usually
eat only vegetarian, because I wanted to please my husband.
Celebrating
is also the reason why we are not supposed to celebrate Christmas and Easter in
such a pronounced way, so as not to diminish your space, because we do that
while it is your merit and then you are totally displaced in celebrating.
"Take it easy. He sees it. Itgoes well!"
One wave of
your hand and we wouldn't be here. You are the one who unites us, that we are
still here, because you love us and want us to be well on earth, especially in
the time of tribulation in which we find ourselves. Thank you for taking this
time for me in all this confusion. I have missed this so much.
"Through lack of insight and experience,
many things remain hidden."
Yes,
because people don't bother to listen to their inner voice or even refuse to do
so and make it difficult for those who want to. They live on the highway and
press the gas pedal until it crashes and then they are helpless and wander
searching through the forest because they no longer understand the world.
Boredom and greed for more and more are some of the reasons we humans get lost
or fall down.
"Impetuous ... prayer has loosed the
fetter."
That night
around 2 a.m., I was tempted to call the police when there was no end to the
talking and celebrating about us. I thought better of it, went to the kitchen,
knelt down and started praying, and then became calmer and more insightful,
knowing anything I would do would mean arguments and cost more nerves. Yes, I
have become more and more nervous and also aggressive lately due to the lack of
silence... because this is what is over us every Saturday ....
The bondage
is the bond of evil. It binds our spirit and clings to us and only prayer can
free us from it, because in prayer we give you the space in which you can
redeem us with your love, when you give our conscience a voice that speaks to
us to show us the right way and to restore our inner peace...when we apologize
to you and your grace becomes effective again, when you forgive us, when we
bring you back into our boat so that we don't suffer shipwreck.
Father
wanted to say something more about the flesh, but I was no longer attentive
enough.....
